Thesis and All That

Just so you know, I'm cramming my thesis today. I haven't even eaten my lunch yet. I still don't want to feed my stomach because my mind is still jam-packed with legions of confusion and anxiety. I have to resolve my problem first before feasting on something. That's just bad, and I know my stupid alter ego is the one to blame for it.

My defense will be next week, and I'm still not done writing my manuscript. I've been so lax about dealing with it for the past months. I guess I've just lost my drive to focus on anything academic. I need a hero for my scholastic salvation pretty please!

My research is about motivation but it's so ironic that I, for one, am not motivated to work on it. Damn. I'm having a hard time formulating some technical words to begin my Results and Discussion. Two difficult chapters to write in a day. Bloody hell!

I'm dead.Tomorrow, I'll be a walking zombie. Watch out, I might wear you out for no apparent reason. I kid. To someone who cares, I beg you to save me from the zombie I'll become.

Meanwhile, here's a photo of me at the library pretending to be noble by jotting down some notes for my thesis.

Wearing Old Navy top, Lee Jeans, Parisian peep toes, thrifted bangle and the ear rings Mom gave me.

And here's my GI friend, Janice. She's a very nice friend, because she's always reminding me to aim my attention at school first. She is definitely a good influence to someone as oblivious as me.

This is Janice sound tripping on her iPAD.

I've also found that dear HP Lappy can also do a 180 Degrees turn. Cool, isn't it? Well, I know it's not something new and shocking, but I'm still pretty much amazed about my discovery.

Help me find a name for her, folks. Puh-lease.

I don't want to sound as if I'm a whining brat who's not doing something to accomplish her task, so allow me to bid my farewell for now. I'm leaving you with this Contemporary Christian song that inspires despite the troubles I'm going through. It makes me feel like I'm closer to Him. I know God is just here to guide me. Here's On My Knees by Jaci Velasquez.

There are days
when I feel
The best of me
is ready to begin (the end)
Then there's (the) days
when I feel
I'm letting go
and soaring on the wind
'Cause I've learned in laughter or in pain
How to survive!

I get on my knees! (x2)
There I am before the Love
That changes me
See I don't know how
But there's power
When I'm on my knees

Je veux obtenir un diplôme! Je suis fatigué d'étudier et de faire ma thèse. I pray to God that I'll have peace of mind, so I can write with clarity and comprehension. Time to eat now. I'm being attacked by the pangs of hunger. Please pray for the success of my thesis, folks.