I want to be independent. Living in an unconventional way. A Bohemian life I guess. I don't want to worry about anything other than myself. Sounds so selfish right? It's so difficult when at the age you're supposed to enjoy your youth, you've been deprived of it. You know what I mean.
Just so you know, I'm trying to think about how it would be when you work while studying. I want to pay for every expenses I have. I just want to do everything on my own. Own money. Own sweat. Own strife.
I have a lot to whine now. All I want to do at the moment is whine, whine, whine. I hate it when I worry. I am such a big worrywart. Just like a man sandwiched by heaven and hell. I hate it.
Uncanny as it may seem bu I really want to be invisible and become a ghost even for only an hour or two. It would be ideal if I'd become one for a lifetime.
Let me just ask this questions. Why should everyone take life seriously? Why should life be this hard? Why should restrictions be present on everything? Of course I do know why. But I'm tired of being so tied down. I have always been tongue-tied, and it got me sick and weary.
How does it feel to have a laid back lifestyle? Someday, I will feel it too. I will be waiting for that moment. I believe in myself. I know I can succeed. My gain will let e go places. I can do everything my own way..someday. The right thing to do, is to just puke this day away.
Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world,
and it's people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn,
and rise above the flames
Pardon me. Pardon me.
I'll never be the same.